I have diabetes. Type 2. The kind that can be reversed if you don’t act like an asshole and ignore healthy food and don’t take your medicine.
I have been an asshole lately.
Today I was having some troubles seeing with my glasses on. This is how I knew something was up. Came home and my sugar is at 357. I’m not surprised as I felt off all day. The last few months I have indulged way too much. I blamed it on the holidays and work stress but really I’m just super lazy. It’s much more convenient for me to pick up some fast food on the way home from work and to snack on cookies and little pieces of cake when I’m hungry at work (I work in a bakery) and to forget to take my meds because they hurt my stomach or make me not feel so great if I don’t take them at the right times. I really need to stop this way of thinking because I know I’m going to regret it.
I’m turning 40 next year and I’ve always thought to myself that by that age I would have everything figured out and in place. I would know where I’m going in life and be headed in the right direction. I would be married and living somewhere that I love. Life would just be taking off. Now I’m thinking some of that is true but I should also add that I would be healthy. As it is now, I work all day and come home exhausted not wanting to do anything. I’m sure lots of people are like that but I really need to not just sit on the couch eating Carl’s Jr. I’m thinking I should prepare wholesome meals on my days off and put them in the fridge to heat up during the week. Mostly, I need to stop being lazy and I need to take care of myself because I really want to make it to 40 so I can go to England.
More on that in another post.